Some old stuff and happy new year

Today is the first day of this year, and I have just returned from the gym. The first workout I did this year was chest and arms. I spent New Years Eve at home with my family, eating some good food and spending time with my love ones. I also made a couple of new year promises to my self:

- Spend less time on Facebook.
- Stop looking back in time.

Since getting a smart phone, Facebook came so easy to access, so I have been watching it quite a lot. Every time waiting for something or not having anything else to do. It have become the place were you follow what your friends are doing instead of calling them or meeting them to catch up. Of course I will not become an anti Facebook person, but ones a day is enough.

I am an expert looking back and remembering the old good days. I am sometime living more in the past than living today. I remember old things better than I remember stuff happening today, maybe I am getting old. Year 2008 was a turning point in my life, a year that was full of sorrow and that made me change as a person. Until that year I had not experienced any sad things in my life, I was happy and loved life. In the end of 2008 I both lost my unborn girl as my father. Experiencing two such sad and heavy things in two month time made me sad and confused. 

In 2009 I got pregnant again and was afraid of everything, afraid that something would go wrong with the pregnancy and I would loose another child. I was afraid of eating something wrong and I was also afraid of working out, therefore the two year break from the gym. You could  say that I became afraid of life.

The pregnancy went well and in end of 2009 I had a healthy baby girl in my arms. Becoming a mother was much heavier than I could ever had imagined. So back to the gym I returned as late as in end of 2010. 2011 I worked out at a regular basis, but without any competitions in my mind. After working out for one year and starting to see the progress the thought of competing came back and I contacted Jari "Bull" Mentula and hired him as a coach.

2012 I have been working out harder than ever and I even came to the point were I got up at stage and took part in my first Body Fitness competition. The cooperation with Bull went really well and I was satisfied with everything. But when I in October saw an add that Minna Pajulahti was having a Try Out for her Pro Elite Team I just had to go. I have admired her physic since 2007 and she was the one I was looking at when I decided to someday compete in Body Fitness. 

Okay that was a look back in time, enough with that. Now I will concentrate at the future and train hard. In the spring you will see a more happy and more confident woman on stage than you did in 2012.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!